Life.

Sometimes life throws curve balls at you. and you just have to be prepared to hit them.

Right now, my heart is broken. I just wish I could go back to the way things used to be. When I was crazy in love, when I used to look at him and i would feel pure happiness and bliss. I wish I could feel something like I used to. I wish things were different and that my heart wouldn't hurt the way it does now. I want to be happy and i wanna feel something again. but i'm scared of letting go. I'm scared of not finding that special spark i had with him. I'm scared of falling in love again and giving my heart to someone else. It hurts so much. It also doesn't help that i will not be seeing him for a while. This distance will kill me and will only bring us further apart. So for right now we have to see where things go. Maybe this is what is meant to be. Maybe someone has something better planned for us. But right now i need him. and i need him more than i need anyone else. My heart has never hurt this bad. I just have to wait...